INVISIBLE- Clay Aiken

Whatcha doing tonight
I wish I could be
A fly on your wall
Are you really alone
Who's stealing your dreams
Why can't I breathe
You into my life
So tell me
What would it take
To make you see that I'm alive

If I was invisible
Then I could just
Watch you in your room
If I was invincible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I could just tell
You where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
Wait, I already am

Saw your face in the crowd
I call out your name
You don't hear a sound
I keep tracing your steps
Each move that you make
Wish I could read
What goes through your mind
Oh baby
Wish you could touch me
With the colors of your life

If I was invisible (Yeah)
Then I could just
Watch you in your room
If I was invincible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I could just tell
You where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
Wait, I already am

I'd make you mine tonight
(Invisible)
I'd make you mine tonight
I reach out
You don't even see me
(No you don't, No you don't)
Even when I scream out
Baby, you don't hear me
(You don'thear me)
I am nothing without you
Just a shadow passing through

If I was invisible
(Yeah)
Then I could just
Watch you in your room
If I was invincible
I'd make you mine tonight
If hearts were unbreakable
Then I could tell you where I stand
I would be the smartest man
If I was invisible
If I was invisible
If I was invisible
Wait, I already am

Major relief:
F&B's exam is over after much cursing and swearing when i saw the SAME few questions on my formative tests. plus, seeing two of my coursemates EXCHANGING their answer booklets.

im so glad that i have 101% confidence that i wont retake any papers. Hard work counts, at times ONLY

i noticed that i always(not really) posted two posts in a day. whatever, no one comes and visit this blog as well.

my flu didnt stop, im coughing and gonna have sore throat like real soon?
i drank alot alot alot of water today and refain myself from drinking coke and eating chocolates. i didnt have my dinner because my stomach was bloated with liquid. and i think im hungry now.
i really dont want to fall sick, just not this period of time when my exams are around. im pretty worried right now.

i think im doing fine with my f&b, i managed to finish Italy, Portugal, Germany and half of France.
Winemaking process, checked.
List of liqueuers & flavours, checked.

Time check
It's erm VERY LATE now, i'd better turn in.

Happy Burrrthday to my Daddy and Sister (:
Ah yes, i finally talked to my sister. HAHA

On a ligther note, i miss my lovely girlfriends.

forgive me to admit that i love to love you.

flu, help

you know what im thinking?

Introduction to Hospitality and Tourism - done
IHT is such a geography paper, so hopefully i crapped the right stuffs through.
MCQs, checked with friends and notes, i can get a 19/20 WOOOOOHOOO :D

Irritating paper with erm boring questions made me almost doze off during the first hour.
1 1/2 pages of answers for one particular question(unfinish) until i realised, i wrote the wrong stuffs.
cancelled, re-wrote, rearranged the points plus my time management. completed on time!

okayy, im gonna doze off again very soooon, but i need to study, so sad.

[Edited]

i feel so so so so so much better after talking to two of my friends and one of my seniors.

says:
u can do it one
says:
believe in yourself
says:
feeling insecure wont make ur results better right?
says:
so believe, and do it
says:
u are pearlyn chua leh. who can stop the chuas?

haha, i thought my friend was pretty humorous. thanks la, friend!

i envy.

the pile of notes is killing me ):

study week = study the whole week?
i was thinking of going out during the study week with my friends, looks like i need to catch up with my revisions and stuffs, so study week = study the whole week! haha

i've made frequent visits to the neighbourhood macs to study lately. on an average of studying for 4 hours there, still i need to study at home for another, say like 3 hours? so it's 11pm right now on my clock, im gonna study right now. (Hopefully, i shut down my laptop in about 15 mins time)

i've got the urge to study lately, so god bless me (:

ohhhhh, SEVENTEEN got a free tote bag this month.
it's god damn nice because it printed a SEVENTEEN somewhere on the bag.
i used 2 hr plus to finish reading the magazine. wth

i miss you ):

national rally, IHT notes, empty stomach, home ALONE ):
i hate to be alone on a sunday night, dont ask me why.

7 chapters done, 3 more to go.

the tv just showed the m&m commerical.
i want to eat m&m peanut butter one. all thanks to sy, now im addicted to it.

i feel like going down to buy chocolates for myself but im too scareeeddd to go down ):

mug pearlyn MUG...

my childhood friend says:
i miss you you and you!
my childhood friend says:
):
WeiTing says:
weiting misses you toooo
&&& KAIXIN, nincompoops! says:
kaixin misses you tooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
to think you are the best says:
stephanie loves you all too
my childhood friend says:
THANK YOU (: hopefully, kx can do her mirco paper tml, steph can stop taking photos in class and weiting can stop skipping school(okay, i dont know whether she is anot anyway!) haha
WeiTing says:
hahahha
WeiTing says:
and hopefully we can meet up soon
&&& KAIXIN, nincompoops! says:
Thank you sooo much, but i've given up ITs hard!
to think you are the best says:
haha
to think you are the best says:
not to worry
to think you are the best says:
hols are near
my childhood friend says:
my exams are fcuking near as well ):
&&& KAIXIN, nincompoops! says:
haha. but im sure you can do well la!
my childhood friend says:
okay, a 'to-do-list' that we must follow
my childhood friend says:
1) go SENTOSA
my childhood friend says:
2) Grapevine again, or giraffe (:
my childhood friend says:
3) SHOPPING
&&& KAIXIN, nincompoops! says:
i wnat polar bear!
&&& KAIXIN, nincompoops! says:
woo, random!
WeiTing says:
i want giraffe
WeiTing says:
!
to think you are the best says:
now 7th month leh
to think you are the best says:
cannot go sentosa
my childhood friend says:
wa ): aint touching the water, just dating with the sexy sun

that's why i love the 3 of them (:

HAPPY FABULOUS SEXY 17TH TO MY 7 YEARS OF BEST FRIEND, ANG YULING (:
i hope you spend your day well with your family (:
Score well for your Os this year and come to TP, or JC if you want to! i'll be glad if you can make it to my dream school as well. lol


i feel so demoralise with my project results. i dont understand why when we had endless meetings in school, endless edition of the projects, put in effort in our work and yet we've got such terrible grades. i may seem okay to some people today, but i feel so terrible when all my friends got good grades when i think i put in equal amount of effort as them. aint trying to imply on anything, because i think my friends deserve those grades that they had as well. i just feel so down...


im staying up late tonight, my exams are coming in seven days ):

if i could, i really would.

All I want to do is stand close to you, be by your side
All I want to do is make the world revolve around you and I
What I would give up, what I would go through, to get it right
All I want to do in this lifetime, is make you mine
All I want to do in this lifetime, is make you mine.

100807
6 projects down
3 presentations down, 1 more to go
1 exam down, 5 more to go
i've been doing countdown-ing these impt dates because i cant wait for my 2 months holidays

josh&ryan's birthday celebrations at josh's house in the night. it was freaking fun. i almost laugh my ass out with them. all the stupid things we said and did. screamed here and there. one word, enjoyed. oh, and my friends finally heard my asthmatic laughter. haha. it's kinda sad that i went off early, i didnt manage to eat the cake.


Josh's house with the bloody big cake

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOMMY! (:

it's been 6 hours since i last utter a word out of my mouth. it's kinda surprising though. im all alone at home. daddy's out, mommy and brother went out for some dinner and sister, erm, somewhere ard the world, oversea-ing. i spent my day rather productive despite not talking to anyone for the past 6 hrs. 4 hours of studying plus 1.5 hrs of wandering-around-some-unfamiliar-places-on-the-bus. okay, i was lost on my way back home. haha.

i tried to search for mom's present today but i really dont know what she wants ): so i came out with this idea which i think it's rather creative.

i wrote her a letter:

Congratulations! Madam Lim, you are entitled to redeem yourself with a date out with your beloved daughter, Pearlyn Chua, for shopping to pick your birthday present with her! So dont miss this chance! Just show this voucher to her two days in advance for your redemption!

*Terms and Conditions
This voucher will be valid till 24 August due to her upcoming exams!

Okay, bye. im gonna stuff this letter inside an angbao and hide it inside her pillow and wait for her to be back home!

im so unhappy with certain stuffs revolving around my life. school plays the biggest part in there. im not trying to be emotional over here. i just dont wanna chuck everything inside my heart. to a certain extent, i think im changing, with the environment that im in now. as far as i know, i always wanted to be the best, learning to be a better person in life. however, i doubt what am i doing right now.

im definitely okay now. im just reflecting on what i've done/happened throughout these months.

growing up is inevitable. you got to face your own consequences for one's wrongdoings.

Yesterday

Formative test was such a shit. i scored my first zero in my whole entire educational life. haha. it's okay, i know im not the only one. well, it isnt counted as well. and for the past two econs lectures, i've been listening attentively because i know i'll eventually flunk my papers if i dont.

after school, yuling and i went ikea-ing and airport-ing till late.

on the lighter note,

i hope you're reading this,EMILY CHEN, cheer up. i hope there's more (: s in your life!